FollowTheCookie

Jesus,

I've been away too long,
Mostly been busy being an independent, yep now that mom's been gone about 6 months, I've learnt the value of independence..and that you need a girl around the house no matter what cause guys cannot manage their own shit easily xD.

I now have a schedule for everything, including my times for musication and animation...

there's a rhyme in there about masturbation but I'd like to think I've grown...and there's a pun that I noticed there so I really haven't...xD.

There's also spots for jogs, gyming, martial arts and I've also taken up rock climbing...yeah i'm looking for well roundedness, I even go to the beach very often...improve my social ranking by flirting with randoms...it works and then if I get shot down the water is pretty cold as well xD.

So yeah, will be posting the fruits of my labours soon...I've tinkered with alot of stuff in my disappearance...so yeah hopefully that'll be something to look at.

see how that goes..miss ya'll and wondering if I'm missed...in either case I know who by...

have a good one all,
much love, peace and prosperity.

Corey 'The Reverend' Ferns

P.S Jyeahhhh I got a cool nickname too, sure its kind of ironic with the ladies but who doesn't like a pervy man of the cloth xD.

Christ, can't remember the last time I used that phrase and I'm typing awfully fast and accurately for a drunk...surprisingly can read what I'm typing as well...trippy.

In anycase, this is more for you than anything else..that is you *points at corleone* journal is a documentation of your life so make a side note...

you've got a fuckload of tutorials to go through and work on drawing like you fucking haven't before. As soon as you get the references work on the line art

Wish me luck.

...Corey Ferns...Grab your pencils..

Cheers.

P.S Days without dying - 22

Doctors Appointment - Pending

Operation - Unknown

It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while
Since I first saw you
It's been a while
since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been a while
since i could call you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

It's been a while
since i could say that i wasn't addicted and
It's been a while
Since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day

Its been awhile
Since I could lok at myself straight
and it's been awhile
since i said i'm sorry
It's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
It's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
I know it's me i cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while


........since i said i'm sorry

Alright,

So lawl..*points at self and laughs* fag! moment here...if you are unaware of what a lawl fag moment is, its where you laugh at your self for being a complete tit.

Now, here's the kicker..
I remember all those times where I used to explain to people what would happen if by chance my prosthetic tube (implant from my skull all the way to my abdomen) happened to slip. For those of you at home...Horror and Gore movies got nothing on me...

Your brain kind of drowns, and you're either praying for your skull to implode or explode, depending on how you want to decorate, while the world spins and your throwing up last night's spaghetti in a toilet bowl you've become so familiar with you could call it a second date.

Correction..here's the kicker..
Recently, my panic attacks have been getting worse..a week or so breathing into a paper bag, falling asleep in a bath tub 'cause the sound of rushing water calms me...
And I find out the day before yesterday that my tube has shifted about two inches away from its normal position..'course I had a miniature heart attack..Wow those things are trippy..its like trying to drag in a gallon of air but your lungs feel like a balloon with a hole and ...well there's no analogy for your heart stopping dead.

Again for those of you at home keeping score..I'm a ticking time bomb lulz...

So if I die before I wake...I'm so sorry, I did have personal letters planned for each and everyone..detailing a lot of apologes for being me...
On the upside though..you get to get rid of me for good xD.

Am working on preserving myself but keep your fingers crossed I make it to..and out of the operation A-Okay...otherwise...well you know...Boom..xD.

Cheers.

And a little note about my said condition:
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I'm laughing tears,
I'm crying smiles..

Everything might hurt, but for a little while..

And while this ache's and other people a merry make, I shall have what I have to take.

Then perhaps, I'll have some cake...

I loved rhyming like a drunk, sodded bard. xDDD

Cheers.